Joy Of Trials

JOT.

The name i wanted for my cell to have when we were deciding a new name. Oh well, maybe its meant for another cell =)

James 1:2-3
Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.

There are many trials that i face at present. These trials put me through a lot of pain, all of them are very much unwanted. Like thorns.

Suffering. Would be a very good word to describe my situation.
Last Friday after i spent some time alone with God, i felt a different kind of peace. Before that the perseverence i had was a "No matter how painful it gets, i am going to surge forward" type. But what i had after was different, i felt this joy in me that was just different. Don't get me wrong, i'm not sadistic(And even if i were, it would be towards someone else). I felt that despite all the pain i feel, i am happy and joyful. I pondered more about it and it was because, i have hope in God. Though i may be suffering, i know after it all it will be worth it. For God promises His children good things for those who place their faith in Him.

Right now, i can smile and laugh and also mean it. And also understand the pain from the trials i am going through. Something i believe only God can do, which is to make you smile and laugh when your suffering(Without being sadistic). Or praise Him and not give up your faith in times of sorrow, like the night my Dad had to go(He should be a better place than me now=)).

They are all, full of hurt.

Keep fighting the good fight my friends. Keep persevering.

I'm hanging on, another day, just to see what, you would throw my way.
I'm hanging on, to the words you say, you said that i would, be okay.

In the pain, there is healing...