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About crashing.

In life we crash many times. Sometimes small crashes, sometimes big crashes. Sometimes we get out of it unscathed and sometimes we get the worst out of it.

I guess my heart crashed. Sigh

To me, whats important is what you learn from a crash, what are you going to do about it and well, that you live to walk away.

Oh, and here are some photos of me in the aftermath of an incident earlier in the night.

Some flesh wounds, i guess it suits the idea of this post.
Somehow it wasn't the part that really hurt. It hurt more much higher up. I recall a conversation between Gabriel and Clara(A small girl) during my recent mission trip. Clara was pinching Gabriel.

Clara: Why doesn't it hurt?
Gabriel: (Pointing at his heart) It is here that can really hurt me.
Me: (I smiled and agreed)

Eventually, Clara came to pinch me and i said the same thing.
I believe that in a corrupted world that we live in, we will encounter many crashes caused by others or our own ignorance.
I think the way one should react to a crash is to get up and do something about it. If your injured, treat it then go home. Yes it would hurt, but u got to pay the price for that crash.

Sometimes people help you, sometimes people don't. Your friends or family cannot be there for you all the time. This crash there were about 5 passerbys around me when it happened. Well, i guess maybe it was too dark and they couldn't see me skid across the concrete floor or maybe the crickets were too loud and they couldn't hear the metal parts of my bike scratch the ground.

After i got up from the ground, i just stood there and thought. "Thank God, i can still walk and i am not dead by my own hands." God is something that will always be there, though i can't say that at that point God picked me up and dressed my wounds. But God was there, and it gave me that hope to pick myself up and do something about it. And sometimes people may not understand you but i know that God will. For instance, when i was in the bathroom cleaning my wound, my Mum not knowing that i hurt myself was irritated and complained i was taking too long. And as i came out, she gave me a really irritated look. Being in pain already it felt worse, but i understand my Mum didn't know the situation and i love my mum. But God knows, and that makes a difference. Sometimes, no matter what we say or do can make someone believe in the truth that we know but God does. All that matters.

It is a comfort to know that no matter what happens and whether if your alone or not God is still there with you and understands you. I believe when we think God is not near is because we have gone too far away from Him.

Pretty Feet.
For me, i am still walking my walk of recovery from a crash and there will always be crashes while i am still on earth. And the ignorance, the walk back covered in blood, the dressing of the wound and the misunderstanding, it all hurts. But i know someone who has been through more, knows how i feel and picks me up when i am down.
Mr Jesus.
Thank you

p.s thank you for preserving my cyclometer too.

Need a doctor?

I thought this short conversation with Cherlyn was funny at macdonald's this morning.

Me: (Laughing hysterically for no reason)

Cherlyn: Bryan are you ok? Do you need a doctor?

Me: Ya, always. (continued laughing)

So,

I guess no link to what i am about to share. But yeah, i thought it was funny.

Who needs a doctor?
(Background)
So Jesus was having dinner at Matthew's place. So the tax collectors and the "sinners" came to eat with Jesus and His disciples. The phariseeees(so called religious ppl) came by and asked Jesus's disciples " Why does your teacher eat with tax collectors and "sinners" ?"

Matthew 9:12
On hearing this, Jesus said, "It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick."

Lets' ask ourselves if we are always with the healthy people most of the time and becoming too absorbed ourselves, in our little groups of 'happy' people. Fellowship is good but lets' not forget what we are doing it for and who gave us that privilege. Why enjoy just the fruits but not obey the commandments? Are we sick ourselves?

Lets' go heal the sick like Jesus did.
But like doctors we are always exposed to germs, bacteria and viruses.
To protect ourselves we must have regular vaccinations(The word).
Keeping ourselves healthy(by praying) to have a strong immune system(with the holy spirit).
Always remember that our medical qualifications were not by our own hands but by the blood of Jesus Christ.

well does anyone think he/she is sick?
Look to Jesus, the ultimate healer.

Wired to Christ Powered to Love

Thats the imprints on the shirt i wore out today, when i went to the sengkang community centre to study on my own. I cycled despite my back injury as i didn't want to walk today, i cycled with care.
I managed to be quite productive today, i was filled with joy and peace :D

I would tell anyone who asked that my 'O' level prelims are kind of messed up, well on my part cause i didn't study much weeks before. Partly because my Dad's sudden passing on tripped my circuits, at least good to know it wasn't sudden for God. So i couldn't really concentrate or have the mood to study. But somehow God granted me peace, Gods peace. Precious and holy it felt great, i guess most people who bother about their studies would have pressed the panic button by now. I thank God for His peace, with it i know that no matter what happens He has a plan for me. I am always safe in His mighty hands.

Jeremiah 29:11
For i know i have the plans i have for you, " Declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

The amazing thing that happened today was a prompting from the spirit. I decided to go to a river near my place just to see Gods wonders. Somewhere i go just to feel closer to His presence by being nearer to His Creation. As i was making my way, the sun shone brightly and directly in my face, it was so glaring that i could not look up, on top of that the way there was slightly bumpy anyway, then i decided to return home instead(which also meant that i would injure myself again). But i had a prompting from the spirit to just go ahead and not worry about the bumpy road, the inability to see or the higher chance or getting into more pain. :D

And so i did, as i went there were many obstacles in my path(joggers,bumps etc) and with every bump i carefully went over. Oh and remember i could only look down, which means i could only see the concrete my bicycle was on and using only the shadows cast from the surroundings to judge my way. Anyway i couldn't use my hand to cover my face either since i had to be careful with my back. ( Yes crazy and very dangerous) Throughout the journey, i was constantly reminded by myself how stupid i was to do this. I was thinking "Hey buddy(me) you want to injure your back or crash into someone right? For fun right? Stupid ahh?" All that trouble just to get to some river i could go any other day and i have a prelim( pure chemistry) paper tomorrow. Well, i did feel like turning back with all those different reasons in my head. Reasons that tell me there were other things more important.

Finally, i reached. Ok not too bad, i' m fine. Hmmm... i still have the way back to think about. Alright time to do what i came here for, so i started to look and enjoy the scenery. It was great, but today was different, what was about to happen and the beauty i was about to see was something i didn't get all the time.

First, i saw a hawk like bird which was most probably rare. Soaring through the skies majestically, i was like "woah" nice, what more could i ask for?
THEN, from under the bridge i was on, a red coloured beak bird with blue feathers flew right under in front of me. I was like "what?" i have never seen anything like that, its body was different from any other typical bird, it was really beautiful. I bet this bird only a handful of people in Singapore had seen it before.
I was really amazed by the sight God had put before me, inside me i felt a surge of peace and joy. That moment i could really feel Gods peace and joy He put in me. Its an indescribable feeling, i never felt that relieved and happy before when i'm alone. I could feel God with me and showing me personally the wonders He had made. I wasn't looking at anything intently or desperately searching for something, but it was like God pointing it out to me.
Well, it wasn't over. I felt told to look down below at the waters, so i just looked. then i thought something had moved really fast. I kept tracing, then i realised it was school of fish?!?!
Ok, Singapores' rivers are not that clean or clear you know. But i was seeing a school of fishin the river darting around, a river from Singapore that has a murky green colour. WHAT is going on? I have never seen a school of fish in the sea much less river.(From Singapore if i may add)
It was really a great time at the river i had spent there, but i had to go. So i bid farewell to the river and left for home, the way was much better since the sun was behind me. I felt so happy that moment and started smiling to myself and realised everyone i passed was gloomy. Hmm.

Today i left with a message. A message from God. That as we go through life so as to finally see our Creator, there will times that are hard. Times where we have no direction like the sun shining in my face, but God will direct us. Times where we might not be at our best condition like my back being injured, but God will compensate for our weaknesses and put me through it safely. Times where there will be obstacles but God will lead us safely through it.
Finally when we reach and taste Gods goodness, it will be sweeter that we can ever imagine, more than we will ever expect. Like the things i saw, i thought that it was all i could see but more came instead. Heaven is something we can never fathom while on earth.
Since i have tasted a bit of Gods goodness before, i have to tell others. I am sure believers have tasted of Gods goodness in other ways. We should tell as many people as we can, that Jesus has risen from the grave and paid for our sins with His great love and goodness.

Brothers and Sisters in Christ, lets fight the good fight and proclaim of Gods goodness.
To one day finally see God face to face.
Those who do not have God in their lives, don't miss out of His goodness. Its free too.

Spidey.

Proverbs 3: 5 - 6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding,
In all ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.

Deny self & Taking up the cross (D&T)

Luke 9 : 23 - 24

Then he(Jesus) said to them all: " If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will save it."

Recently i have been thinking about "denying oneself" What is it actually? I had always thought that denying oneself is giving up your life for Christ and going the way He has planned for you.

But am i really denying myself and taking up my cross daily? Well, i guess in some areas of my life i have not been doing so, i have alot to do.

So what is it to give up your life and going the way He planned it for you? Well, surely we could just take a bullet for Christ, block a mob of people with machetes to save the lives of others. I guess that would be much easier than denying yourself. Though it may still be giving your life up for Jesus in a sense. But wouldn't your life be more useful to God when your still alive able to serve Him on earth? I always thought, how great it would be to be martyr, to be able to give your life for the glory of God(i sound like a terrorist). But now i realised, if i choose to die quick, end it all and call it my service to God; i am but a coward who wants to escape this world of sin.

To give your life up to Christ is to live your life in Christ for Him to use you for His glory. It is not easy, but God promises to help us.